kirsty its mummy, i have been away for some time but now i am back. i have and still do miss you greatly kirsty it causes me so much pain in my heart. it still feels so raw. i am struggling with what to say to you that i have not said a thousand times before. i suppose the obviouse thing to say is i love you my preciouse baby. that hurts kirsty. while i have been away i have done something i have never done before and that is to pray for you, and i suppose for me too. i prayed selfishly to see you again, for you to give me a sign anything to let me know that your little life does continue. i must say i do struggle with your happy memories kirsty but i am told that they will return one day. i do hope so my little one. i love you kirsty and i miss you lots and lots. i do hope you are in a good place and you are free from pain and that you are happy kirsty. love you always mummy xxxxx